Revised Edition

A story of surviving the dark and still reaching for the light.

I Need A Smoke is a deeply personal memoir about family, mental illness, grief, resilience, faith, and the extraordinary effort it takes to keep standing when life changes shape without warning.

Resilience, family, faith, and the realities of mental health survival.

An honest, compassionate story for readers seeking connection, courage, and hope.

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Front cover for I Need A Smoke by Leianne McNair
Back cover for I Need A Smoke by Leianne McNair

This revised edition is presented with both the front and back cover, giving readers a fuller first look at the memoir before they continue into the story.

“Mental illness is not a character flaw. It is not a weakness. It is not something you can push through with enough willpower, faith, or positive thinking. It is a disease — as real and as indiscriminate as any other.”

Leianne McNair writes with honesty, humor, faith, and hard-won grace.

Luminous abstract background inspired by the memoir's bell metaphor

A memoir for readers who need to feel less alone.

For every person who has ever walked out of a locked ward into the ordinary world and tried to find their footing: I see you. We are still here. We can still stand.
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